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Saturday, June 28, 2008 11:34 AM


mon amie, mon coeur et mon amour.


right after my last post, the internet fuckd me over. this time for 9 days. oh dear lord imagine what that did to me.

.. well nothing suicidal. just deprived of the internet more than usually, but i managed well suprisingly. kept myself busy and man did that make my credit go down. being without internet amazes me though the things you can accomplish when the internet isnt around. ive done all my pending crap ive been meaning to do in that span of 9 days. although it makes you mentally crippled in some ways, at least physical ive got my ass off and do productive crap.

and now, its time to enjoy my weekend. ;)


Wednesday, June 18, 2008 8:47 PM


i cant wait to burst out TGIF hehe.

imagine being screw over by a friend but family? somehow its a pretty common thing, if youre doing what i do. *mental note not to get married anytime soon huhu. i know i definitely couldnt do it. doesnt help being too nice now does it?

its so nice to have my internet abit more stable than expected, but my ass is permanently stuck to this chair. cause & effect. i just hope it doesnt bite me in the ass tomorrow and i wont have connection all over again.

with almost everyone i have a conversation with today, theyre spilling out a little too much information for me to handle, not as in secretive way. just a little too personal for my liking. to the point where i just nod, smile along and refraining myself while bursting whats really on my mind. not that im a bad listener, i just dont need that info you know haha, i have my own thoughts to mull over.

today was my lovely bday, and i felt bad i couldnt do much for her.


i couldnt ask for more, im just feeling abit overwhelmed is all.

friday here i come :)


Tuesday, June 17, 2008 8:42 PM


the broken lights on the freeway
left me here alone..


work has sucked the life out of me. im thoroughly mentally exhausted, i came home and straight away just laid in bed and just stare in the ceiling. thats how wiped out i was today. amazes me though, ive never been this tired in my life.


i didnt think id have my connection tonight, hope it stays this way. so i dont have to exert more of my energy calling them. sighs. i dont want to get into them. just happy that i have the connection, even if its for a few hours, as long its here when im home.


time to take the edge off and indulge in a little recreational time :) woooo



those webcam shots az took hehe


you know those silences we encounter;
itd actually gave me clarity, somehow



Monday, June 16, 2008 9:58 PM


im not as crazy as you might think i am, sure i go might go overboard sometimes but i do know my limits.

i have my own share of flaws, but i do learn from my mistakes.

i might not have a great sense of direction in life, but i breeze through alright even when it gets pretty dark at times.

i might look like nothing bothers me, but theres just always something brewing in my mind.

i tend to let my mind wander too much, but i dont stray from my reality

try as i might, i cant stop with you..





despite all these, tell me now could i be?






... that wonderone?


Monday, June 09, 2008 8:15 PM


those mornings you wish you could just stay in bed because of the full completed weekend you had.

you take a glimpse hoping that maybe the bright sunlight would freshen you but you see a grey sky and see a cool breeze.


i want my late mornings, my body alarm is fixed for 630am. how unnatural is that? harumpph




you finally figured, life had to be a bitch didnt it.


just a little incentive, not happiness could be ok, couldnt it?


Sunday, June 01, 2008 10:19 AM


so here i am, yet at another impasse.


thank god for distractions :).



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quod me nutrit; me destruit.